I went to a tiny little Christian high school (a Northstar rival - won't tell you which one...), and I guess you could say I was a big fish in a small pond. I played every sport, and started varsity in two of them by the time I was in 8th grade. I thought I was just hot stuff, of course...But looking back, I really didn't have a whole lot of competition, and although I had some talent, the reason I held the positions I did was just because there was no one else to fill them.
But somewhere inside I've always held on to that desire to be a superstar - someone who stands out, who is better at something than anyone else. On occasion I'll play pick-up games with someone, and if they're on the not-so-athletic side I might appear to be a step above, so to speak. Somewhere inside me I love that feeling of being better than someone. I try not to show it, and I'm sure most of the time no one notices my arrogance, but it's there.
This season I've been standing in for one of the church volleyball teams, and I love the people I'm playing with - they're great people, and I'm so glad that I've been able to do this with them. We had a game tonight, and well, it wasn't good. But just in my short ride home the Lord showed me some things...
He reinforced to me that I am no better than the next person, nor am I more or less valuable. Athletics can make us feel like we're on top of the world, or under the whole weight of it, but that feeling doesn't mean a thing about who we really are, or about what we contribute in "real life".
He showed me that my body is only as good, as healthy, and as coordinated as He allows it to be. I am aging, decaying, and becoming less and less able to "perform". That is the way I was made, and physically I am past my prime. But what it allows me to see is that it's not my strength or youth that holds me together - it is the will of God. If He willed me not to exist, that which is my body would be dust in an instant.
And He showed me that I have no right to expect Him to make me a superstar.
HE is the superstar.
3 comments:
This drama will be performed this weekend by the teens at FBBC for teens involved... What a powerful impact it has on the viewers!!!
I saw them do it on Sunday - it was amazing. Can't help but be moved to tears for what a hero Christ is for us.
Aging, decaying, less and less able to perform....Oh man, that stinks!! But you are right...He is the Superstar, not us!!
Thanks for posting the video. I cried watching it! Love ya Missy...it was good to see you today!
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