Hannah is 5 years old and just started kindergarten here at home...In the past few months, I've noticed some things about her that I am lacking, some things I wish I could get back. I watch how she is sometimes and I wonder where on earth she got it from.
I guess what I love most about her right now is that she loves with all of her might, and it is completely unconditional. Maybe we lose this quality as we age, or maybe it's that pride seeps in and we choose to put conditions on love, but she doesn't do that. I've had my bad days, days when I hope she'll forget my poor parenting, but the next morning she wakes me with a smile just the same, as though I took her to Disneyland the day before. Always the same, always new every morning, always with her whole heart. I wish I had that in me the way she does. It wears me out thinking of the energy it would take for me to love anything as hard as she does...I wish it were that effortless for me.
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